+ the time to GROW UP is now.

[zenith]

zenith!

you'll never change.
you'll stay the same.
you'll never change.
at least.. not for me.

Ah, peace & quiet at last. It only made sense, though, to not have another soul in a radius of a few miles. It was five in the morning, the sun's rays barely peaking out beyond the horizon. The sky was still blue, purple, & black with a few stars still twinkling their good-byes. I'm sure the entire town was frittering away fresh hours of the fresh day by releasing simple z's. I loved this: watching the sun come up. Sunsets were so overrated. It was watching the sun coming up that was a true experience. People take it for granted. Not me, though. Whenever I have a chance, I'll snatch it in a heartbeat. A prime example would be this morning as I traveled from one city to the next. I only meant to pass through, but this boardwalk seemed to grasp my attention, like I was meant to be here. Like I was meant to sit here patiently, hindquarters embracing the chilled dock & eyes staring down the line where sea meets atmosphere. The sky & the sea were so alike, yet so different. Made of two complete different substances, yeah, but the creatures inhabiting them both flew gracefully. They both called to me.

Now, the sun was reaching the edge, morphing the sky as it made its ascent. I sat very still for a long while & it seemed like forever until the sky was painted all the most beautiful colors, from yellow to deep purple. I wanted to touch the masterpiece stretched out before me. I wanted to dive into it, swimming along with the colors, becoming one of those beautiful colors. Naturally, my mind's track of thought ended up at "water." It made sense now. I find myself standing at the middle of the boardwalk, slowly walking towards the very end. My previously stiff muscles were now warming up as I took them to work & my blood was flowing. I shivered the chill off of my body, deeming myself dumb at what I was going to do, but I simply had to do it. It doesn't matter if it's mid-autumn. I had to do it. Simple as that.

I finally reached the end of the boardwalk & I was now staring down at an Irish Mastiff. Fawn, wiry fur. Dark, beady eyes. My reflection was broken up lightly by the sea's natural ripples as a light, chilly breeze broke right through my pelt & skin. I watched myself shiver. It was an odd thing, to look at yourself do things. This might be the fourth time I've seen my reflection, & still, it surprises me greatly. My mind now went blank as a thought flickered. Go. The next few seconds seemed like they really lasted a few minutes. Each motion was drawn out. I sprung my muscles up, preparing to make the leap. I released the power, soaring over the railing upon the boardwalk, flying. This feelings was simply magnificent, like I was everything I could ever want to be. Like I was everything anyone could ever want me to be. I closed my eyes, taking in this perfect moment.

Shit. I'm an idiot. Yep. Do I ever think before I act or speak? I'm so damn impulsive. What the hell was I thinking? Was this ever a good idea?

Why was I being so pissy? Well, let's see. I just jumped into the freezing cold ocean. The impact with the water was like jumping into a tub of glass. It was like having a million pins prick into me deep at once. Well, now I'm floating in the ocean, kicking my hind legs lightly beneath the surface to keep me afloat in the chilly water. At least it isn't winter.. I heard myself say between my chops chattering. I'm not sure if that was sarcasm or my ridiculous optimism, but I didn't care. I just wanted to get out of the frozen fire. I wasn't even happy about the sunrise anymore. In fact, I blamed that stupid scene. It gave me the urge. It made me want to be one with it. Ugh.. Whatever. I just want out. Now. I began to paddle towards the sand, all the way muttering the same words. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Oh, the shit I go through..

At last, I reached the shore. The solid sand beneath my sensitive pads felt reassuring. Yeah, it said, you made an uh-oh, but it'll all be alright. It'll always be alright.

Fuck! I exclaimed between shivers & teeth chatters. In fact, my teeth haven't stopped doing so since I got out of that hell. That icy breeze was back with even more of a kick, smacking me in the face for being so impulsive. Just like my mother would.. Now, Zenith, you remember what I told you? To think before you act? You see where not doing so got you? Are you going to think next time? ...SHUT UP. Oh, great, I'm talking to no one. Maybe I'm going crazy. Hm.. Repeatedly, I shook myself to rid of the clingy excess water that was persistent to freeze me out of my own skin & bones. You know, Z, you're ridiculous.. I told myself with a chuckle.

( 89o // 7/1o // taken )

[tsuya]

&&toshite watashi ha kaidan wo kudari te, ooku no tejun wo jikkou shimasuto, tooku wo shutoku.
As many steps as i take down the stairs, it gets farther away

It was almost madness to be up this early in the morning, to greet the sun as it shook the dew from its rays and stretched across the land. Any normal dog without an idea would be breathing heavily as sleep-locked muscles unbunched and stretched by the pressure and speed of what I was traveling, a trot that took me to my destination but kept my stamina intact. Any normal dog would see shadows and unreal, head still lost in the cloudy stupor of sleep, shaking cobwebs from craniums and smaking jaws to wake up the teeth, tongue and mouth. But I was no normal dog. I had a plan. I had no tired muscles. I had no cobwebs. What I had was a bag of bones. My legs were short and stocky, but still thin and bony, and I still knew not how I pulled this off. My muzzle was long, my head small, dispreportioned, seemingly to have knobs and ends trying to protrude through my stretched skin. My ribs were clearly visible through the stress. My flesh was thin, and I knew that I could eat every fat rabbit from here to eternity, I would gain no weight. Why? It was simple. The poison in my blood from birth feeds off of the things I feed myself, and it starves me and gluttons itself. When it is hungry it attacks me, sending me into shaking, writhing fits of sickness, blood streaming from my maw, my nose.

It was quiet here, in the early throws of the tortured day. A loud 'thump' caused me to stop my pace and glance back at my traveling companion. She was a hulking beast, filled with rolling muscle and a personality like nitroglycerin on a bombing range-agressive, dangerous. My twin sister stood a good five inches taller than I, yet I was the older. My sister was not struck with poor health, but a poor mind. She had a sickness of the brain which caused her to attack others without warning. But I could control this thing, like a trigger controls the bullet. She looked to me for guidance and I looked to her for food, protection and revenge. Sweet, sweet revenge. Whilst my sister was an agressive, bloodthirsy war machine by cruel fate, sweet nature had made me a bloodthirtsy, merciless, deranged creature. I was evil in almost every sense of the word. My sister was just stupid.

Morgan, you great dolt, why have you stopped? I snapped, looking at my sister as she writhed on her back. My back itches, Maddison. It itches!

[/b] She got that whiny, distressed note in her voice that she got when she was about to panic and snap. I calmed myself. Easy, sister. I murmured, walking over to her side and nudging her. Take a swim. The cold will kill all itches. I am going to explore. She whined gratefully then tore towards the water, entering with a splash. I closed my eyes and listened to her splashing movements as she tore through the cold water. She would be in there for a while. My sister loved the water, cold, warm, salty, clean. I shrugged, tipping my better audit towards the sky, I swore from here to eternity I could hear some creature mumbling, talking to itself. Taking a sniff, I smelt sweet, cold stinging my nostrils, and the smell of a wet dog. With a light yip I trotted towards the smell. I could still hear the words that the creature was speaking as I stumbled upon it. I stifled laughter, cocked my ungraceful head, preparing my speak to excellent proquidity.

My, my. I said alloud at the sopping, great thing before me. You look like you're in quite the predicament. I took a few steps closer. Tell me, did you purposefully go for a swim or are you just that uncoordinated? I joked, knowing that this large, fawn colored thing had no chance of being uncoordinated. He was filled out to the top with lean muscle and sinew, he looked weather worn and travel tired. I sat back on my smaller, white haunches, my brown Brittany nose sniffing the air. [/blockquote][/blockquote][/size][/font]

&&sono uwasa to onaji desu. kushamiwosurutoki karera haanatano hanashi
its the same as rumors. sneezing when they talk about you.

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[zenith]

zenith!

you'll never change.
you'll stay the same.
you'll never change.
at least.. not for me.

I must have let my guard down. I must have been so engrossed into my own thoughts. I must have not given a flying shit. Why do I say this? Because the voice of another - female - dog sounded like fingernails against a chalkboard. My, my. I practically jumped out of my skin at the sound of it. Now, don't get me wrong. Her voice was rather pretty, it just scared the living fire out of me. In fact, I was quite sure I let out a pathetic, terrified, embarrassing yelp. Instinctively, my hackles rose & I turned on my guest, possibly to cover up my own stupidity & embarrassment. You look like you're in quite the predicament. As soon as my dull, brown eyes took in the tiny bitch, I felt ashamed for allowing any molecule of aggression showing towards her. Looking at the tiny angel made me want to scoop her up & lick her to death.

Her ridiculously tiny paws drew her toward me as she continued to speak. Tell me, did you purposefully go for a swim or are you just that uncoordinated? This created a chuckle to bubble up & lighten the mood. I noticed I was now on my large haunches, my thin tail was thumping the sandy earth lightly. Mm, a bit'a both.. I replied softly, feeling rather bashful around this little young lady. She was a damn pretty thing. Her pelt was a soft white, reminding me of soft bunnies, with light tan splotches along her body. Uh, my name's Zenith, but you can call me Z if ya'd like. I said quickly as I stood up. As soon as I did so, I regretted it. I towered over this little creature & felt rather stupid. With a sigh, I sat back down. I was a damn awkward being. What should I call you? I asked, hoping she wouldn't ridicule me of my largeness.

The sun was beginning its journey to the middle of the sky. I could feel its warm rays even with the freezing breeze slicing through me. I was still a bit damp, so I'm sure it was even worse for me than the little Brittany Spaniel. Even so, I felt guilty; like I was forcing such a belle to be out in the cold just to chat with me. Jeez, my conscience sure was active this morning. Already, I felt like I was responsible of any shiver that might strike this lady.

( 415 // 6/1o // taken-tsuya )

[tsuya]

&&haruka na koko kara kanata no kimi e to, ano hibi no kaze to kakera wo todoketai
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from here to you in a far away place, i want to send that days of the wind and the pieces.

I, myself, supressed a laugh as he leaped into the air and yelped. Maybe he wasn't as mentally sound as I thought he was? Of course he wasn't, he was talking to himself, wasn't he? I mentally reprimanded myself, for I talked to myself all the time and did not classify myself as mentally unstable. A lot of the time, my 'mental' health was better than my physical one, which, in the case of my lumbering sister who was probably off freezing her tail in the cold ocean waters, was utterly backwards. I took a deep sniff as the wind shifted and blew the smell of fish into my face. Luckily there was nothing in my stomach or I might of retched right away, but I just gave a small shudder and shifted my bony body to the opposite side. He faced me with ferocity, and I just closed my eyes and smiled. All males did the same thing, replaced mistakes with agression. I had studied the canine kind enough to realize this. Oh please. I thought. If I tried to hurt you, you could break me like a twig. I looked down my elongated muzzle at this creature. Do you think me that stupid? I wondered, looking for an opportunity. But he had showed no disrespect, just male stupidity. So right now it would be against even my screwed up moral compass to kill this great thing. I heard him laugh at my lyrics, and his reply made me laugh-it was wonderfully disguised, and only a little fake. Well, that cannot be helped. I replied with a smile.

I nodded at his name. Well, Z, I said, accostoming myself to using his nickname. I am Maddison. But you could call me Maddy. He was extremely large and when he stood up, I was in his shadow. But I was not intimidated, because I knew what was coming. I could smell it a little ways away, and turned just in time to leap out of the way of it. Morgan barreled towards me, and I could feel her concern. But when she reached me she didn't stop and tumbled down towards the dog. Her great bulk and bloodred splotches, muddied. I saw her glance up and the male and yip, jumping out of the way in time before hitting him, landing in an uncoordinated heap at his feet.

I sighed. Morgan, dearest, must we relearn how to put on the brakes? I asked. My sister just stood and shook her self, and trotted back up to me. No, sister.

[/b][/color] she said, not even apologizing or seemingly embarassed for her careen down the hill. I sighed again, and shook my head. Uh, Z, allow me to introduce you to my less than coordinated sister, Morgan. Morgan leaped and noticed the male again. She stood a good four inches taller than me, and was slightly more threatening, but probably not to this brute. I felt her anger boiling up.

Shall I kill him, sister? [/color] she spoke to me in my head, a sister twin thing we had been able to do since birth. Absolutely NOT! I forced a tinge of apallment into my voice. He has done nothing to us! So Morgan laid down, but I could still feel the anger brewing in her. Of course the big brute heard nothing, nor felt anything. It was just because of our sisterly closeness that we could do these things. [/font][/blockquote][/blockquote][/size]

&&deai to wakare wo kurikaeshite monao, boku wa konna ni mo kodomo no mama da, awai imeeji nante, michibata ni kori nagete shimaetara na
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repeating encounters and goodbyes, i'm still a child, such image, if I can just throw it away.

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[zenith]

zenith!

you'll never change.
you'll stay the same.
you'll never change.
at least.. not for me.

I was truly, sincerely happy. As a social being, isn't it only to be expected of me? I could never, ever become a solitary hermit. I thrive off the attention of others. Does that make me emotionally high maintenance, too needy? Or was it just a simple trait, easily overseen? Was it a positive or negative trait? A pro or a con about me? Well, there I go again, rambling away in my head. I'm glad no one can hear my thoughts; I'd be classified as a mad man immediately.. She seemed to not even be broken by my impulsive, aggressive action. Did it not phase her?

Her soft, angelic vocals braided with the atmosphere & tickled my ear drums. I always noticed the positive in others, always been optimistic & pointing out beauty before flaws. Well, that cannot be helped. I nodded with her, just playing along in the small chat game. It wasn't as if I dislike small talk; I'd just rather create a real connection. Well, Z. I enjoyed that she used the nickname I suggested rather than my more proper name. I am Maddison. But you could call me Maddy. Maddison. Maddy. Hm, it fit her. It's a pleasure to meet you, Maddy. I used the nickname she suggested just as she did for me. This young Spaniel confused me.

She stepped away from me, I'm sure I cocked my head at this. Wh- I began, but immediately stopped as I saw another dog speeding nearly at me. I heard her yelp & move out of my brick wall-like path. I looked down at her with dusty eyes beside my massive paws. Maddy spoke again & I listened, she just had that control over me. Morgan, dearest, must we relearn how to put on the brakes? I prevailed to stiffle a chuckle, not wanting to be on this Morgan's bad side. She seemed to be a part of Maddison's life. I was about to introduce myself when my new acquaintance beat me to it, but it seemed that she'd do a better job anyways.. Uh, Z, allow me to introduce you to my less than coordinated sister, Morgan. I nodded towards Morgan, smiling charmingly. I watched as she lay down, but not after noticing how large she was compared to little Maddy. This had me curious, but it would be rude to mention. Hello, Morgan. Zenith or Z; it's your preference.

( 413 // 6/1o // taken-tsuya )
( sorry for such short posts. D: thanks for replying, though. <3 )

[tsuya]

morgan & maddison

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You can go your own way
Go your own way
You can call it
Another lonely day

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As I watched this male in my presence, I was already 'splitting myself in two,' as I liked to call it. I sent my more questioning, cautious and calculatign part of me deeper into my mind to start scanning and skimming the information I was being handed this male by his words, actions and reactions for his weaknesses and strength. He was quite tall, large, and muscular, but he was socially needy. He often doubted himself. I cocked my head to the side and blinked quickly, twice. My more personal, social part of my personality rose to the top of my, and I broke into a smile. I was like a cold, cynical computer, delving into him without him even knowing it. The way he breathed, the direction he looked, it was all being processed in my center allies. My reactions to his intimidating size and strength puzzled him, I could see, and my smile got bigger. It was wise to confuse the stranger in your midst, so in escape or battle you got the upper hand. Not that I wanted to fight right now, but I could feel that boiling that was writhing through Morgan, like thunder clouds on the horizon.

Oh, the pleasures all mine, I'm sure. I replied to his words. My sister sat on her hind haunches and began to whack at an itch behind her ear, splaying mud everywhere. I nimbly jumped farther to the side, growled and circled around my sister to the other side of her. I scanned Z from my new position. Morgan, please. Not in the presence of company. I pleaded wryly. My sister just laughed, and tore in a quick circle before falling down on her paws. Maddy, you're such a kiss ass. She laughed, then turned to Z. Hi, Z. Heh, if my sister and I went by our first letters we'd both be M. M M M M emememememem. You couldn't tell us apart, by name, which is why our father and mother never called us M, I suppose...[ she continued to drone until I stomped gently on her tail. Yes, sister dearest, better a kiss than a dumb. Don't you have some more swimming to do, possibly? I asked. She shook her head, and fell on her back, squirming. NOPE. Oh, Maddy, I thought you said the cold water would kill the itches!

I rolled my optics. Which is why you should go back in, Morgan. The thought of relief finally administered understanding in her tossing mind, and she barked, jumped to her feet and tore towards the water, hitting it with a splash. I rolled my eyes again, sighing. I apologize for my sisters thick brain. She actually is quite an interesting travel companion.

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If I could
Baby I'd give you my world
Open up
Everything's waiting for you

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breaths: 65o
muse: 5/1o
mind demon: maddy & morgan
for zenzen

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