What happened?

[MENTAL]

What happened?

I used to be the person you wanted to tell everything to.
I used to be the person you talked with all night making plans for the future.
I used to be the person you claimed you would love forever.

Did you forget?

You used to be the person who was always there for me to talk to, to have random conversations with just for the fun of it.

Where are you now?

You used to be the person that made me wake up with a smile and look forward to the day just because you would be in it.

Where's the smile now?

You used to be the person who knew everything about me and let me know everything about you, because we trusted each other.

Where is that trust now?

I never felt you were hiding anything from me.
I never doubted the words that you said to me.
I never felt like you'd rather be anywhere but here.
I never doubted the kind of friend you were.

But now I don't know.

I used to think that you were all I'd ever need.
I used to think that you were better than the rest.
I used to think that you would never hurt me.
I used to think that you understood.
I used to think that you were the person I wanted you to be.

Was I wrong?

All the bad things never mattered.
All the bad people were ignored.
All the bad feelings were forgotten.
All the bad was pushed aside.

Who's keeping it away now?

No one said I was making a mistake.
No one said I should be careful.
No one said it would hurt.
No one said it would end.
No one said it would turn out a lie.
No one said I would feel like this.

Why wasn't I warned?

I don't understand.
I don't know what I did.
I don't know what I should have done.
I don't know what I shouldn't have done.
I don't know what mistake I made.
I don't know what changed your mind.
I don't know what made you leave.
I don't know what you're thinking.
I don't know what to do to make it right.
I don't know what made it disappear.
I don't know...
I don't know...
I don't know...

How could I?

I just want to know what happened.

I guess its just me against the world.