you're simply R A D ! A N T.

[pandora]

DISCORDIA.

You know the best feeling in the world? The feeling of getting a belly-rub from a little kid. Not just any kid, though. A gentle one. Ooh, yeah, that's the spot. And you know the best scent in the world? The scent of a human. Not just any human, though. A spoiled one. And you know the best taste in the world? The taste of a kid's skin when you lick him. Not just any kid, though. One that just ate ice cream. And you know the best sound in the world? The sound of a disappointed kid who doesn't want to let you go. Not just any kid, though. A hopeful and honestly bummed one. Aw, but Mom, can't we keep her? But she's a pretty doggy! Aw, okay.. Bye! Any you know the best sight in the world? The look on a kid's face when he walks away holding his mom's hand. That "I'll see you soon, I hope" look. Not much on Earth can match that.

From lying on my back with my underside revealed, I rolled over onto all four paws, feeling a bit less vulnerable. My brown eyes connected with the kid's blue ones as we watched the distance grow between us. Bye! I barked, although I know he's too dumb to understand me. Poor kid is just a human. He released his tiny child hand from his mother's adult one and waved it at me before she snatched it again and scorned him for not holding onto her while crossing the road. My tongue lolling between my jowls, I gave him my best doggy smile and my happiest tail wag. And you know what? They were genuine, not fake. I s'pose a little pal is all I need to be happy.

Once the human pup was out of my keen vision, I turned my coal back to his path and faced my objective, my mission, my goal: Monte Public Pool. Yup. I was going for a swim on this hot, summer day. It was a perfect time: right as the sun was setting and it was clearing out. The humans were going home for dinner after a long day of sun-bathing and water-splashing. I watched as the last family left, dragging with them floating devices and toys of all kinds. And for who? One kid. One kid who just so happened to be asleep in Mommy's arms after such an eventful day. The two adults paid no attention to me, I was just a roaming mutt to them.

I hurried through the gradually closing gate, and it snapped behind me with a SLAM!, almost catching my tail. Almost. But almost doesn't count except in horse shoes, slow dancing, and hand grenades. I went to the corner of the cement pool area, sitting down next to a trash can as a security guard walked by. Yep. Of course the dumb human wouldn't pay any attention. He's too worried about getting home and eating, just like the rest of them. Little does he know there's me, a clever little mutt in the corner. If he would actually look up, he'd see me, clear as day. But of course, he's just a stupid human.

He left quickly, of course, and I made my way from the shallow end to the deep end. I guessed it was a seven or eight foot pool, I'd been it before. I adored the sound of being completely submerged, gliding ungracefully below the surface. It was as if you were in a place like Heaven, but more tranquil, peaceful, and serene -- if that was possible. I exhaled slowly and deeply as I closed my light brown eyes, curtaining my vision of the world. For just a second, not a muscle of mine moved. But that second passed quicker than lightning striking. And in a flash, every muscle moved. My eyes bolted open, my legs jolted forward, my heart beat faster, and adrenaline pumped through my veins. I was then airborne, and life was complete. I could happily die right now. I was in heaven again. I closed my eyes and blew air out of my nostrils as I leaped into the water.

I doggy-paddled around for a bit, that doggy smile and tail wag as true as ever. Oh, these blissful summer nights.

words- 745.
muse- fairly good.
for- tsuya with nuju. (:

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[tsuya]

Nuju

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Father, father, amazing father. Father, wait for me. Father, why won't you turn around? Don't leave me here alone, father, you know mother will kill me if she gets the chance. She hates me, father, because I am the reason sister died. Why, why did sister die? It was my fault, I took up too much room in her womb, and... and I used up too much of the stuff we needed to live. Stories? Don't let mother put these stories in my head, father? She doesn't love me, she'd be the happiest ever if she could just feel my organs sliding down her throat and have my blood stained on her paws. Demented? You're telling me to not act so demented? Tell that to mother, dad. Yeah, so now you stop, huh, daddy? Mother told me so, dad, to watch my back or she would kill me. Were are you going, dad?Oh, she told me a long, long time ago. I'm the reason she had to leave my brother behind and the reason those humans stopped to pick up Uruia, right, dad? RIGHT? Wasn't my fault, my fault at all, dad? Your fault? How could it be your fault, father, you've never done anything bad in your life. Tell me then, dad, what bad things have you done in your life? Huh? HUH?

.....fell in love with Denuiru? That was bad? But wasn't that my fault, too? So, I wasn't born, but mother said that I was the reason for everything bad. The reason the earth cracks and the wind blows and the water breaches its banks. The reasons the humans picked up Uruia and made us leave our little brother behind? The reason the lightning comes down from the sky and the reason the sicknesses flood through our veins. No, dad, don't try to silence me- listen! Listen to me! I AM the reason why all this bad stuff, these horrible things happen, I don't know how, but I AM. I don't want to be, but I AM. You see my eye, dad? My red eye? This eye is the mark of the devil, the mark of me doing all this bad stuff. No, its not a birthmark, it is the mark of the devil! THE DEVIL! See how it dialates and contracts on its own? Father, father, please, I don't want to be evil, I'm not, I don't want to hurt things. I AM EVIL! Mother would not hurt me if I was NOT evil! Heh, does mother try to hurt me? Mother tried to KILL me just a while ago. You weren't there, father... father, why are you walking away from me? Why? Where are you going? To fix your mistakes? Father, let me come with you- father, father, please! What mistakes? HEY! ...What...mistakes. Going... to... going to kill.... as in, murder... going to kill... murder...

mom?

A growl escaped my maw as the little rodent did a ninety degree turn and shot for a tree, fluffy tail flailing out behind him as little paws with tiny claws scrabbled for a hold in the grass, running for his life. With each reach of my powerful, long legs I got closer, my lungs pumping oxygen to my blood and my heart pumping blood to my muscles which lunged forward, grasping the dirt and bringing myself ever closer to my quary- squirrel. The little animal had chittered at me from a tree in a backyard and was very surprised when I scaled the fence and lunged for him, knocking the offending rodent out of the tree. I snarled as I came ever closer, closer.... I watched as the little thing bounded up the tree and climbed to a higher branch than I could even jump. Even though I did know that the offending creature was away from me, I did not stop, until the trunk collided with my head.

OW! I barked, stumbling back as waves of pain cascaded through me, I fell to the grass, my white, curly tail wagging weakly. I closed my eyes as the red fireball of hurt slowly died, and something new came to my attention- the smell of chlorine. A swim in the pool would assist the pain in dying. I turned and snarled at the squirrel, who had buiried himself inside his little trunk home and would not show his mangy head. I raised my dignified crown and trotted towards the weak spot in the fence that I forced myself through, cringing as the lose ends raked my flesh and drew a bit of blood. It was alright, I deserved it for all the evil I had brought upon my family. A bit of red stained my white/cream fur, but I figured the pool would cause it to try out and stop the bleeding. I shifted past the guards, my left eye dialated. The light was so bright, I cringed. The light receptors in my left eye didn't work properly, so the pupil dialated and contracted of its own free will. The iris and white stuff around it was also red, my whole eye was red with a little black dot in the middle as my pupil contracted and I finally opened it to its full capacity. The water that pulled itself into the filter, the lapping sound reached my ears and excitement flowed through me as I ignored the pain in my back and galloped towards the waters edge, launching myself into the deep end with a gigantic splash. My head broke the surface and a laugh escaped me. I failed to notice I wasn't alone... [/size]

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[pandora]

DISCORDIA.

I swam about in the deep end leisurely, but I was completely aware of my surroundings. The sun was halfway above the horizon, halfway beneath it. This sent vibrant colors from a bright orange to a gorgeous purple across the clouds. The temperatures cooled off quite a bit, probably cutting a good twenty degrees off the thermometer. The chlorine killed my nostrils, but it was well worth it. Such a lovely way to cool off after a day of traveling. I knew the consequences: my coat would be dry and tangly for a few days, I would just have to bathe in a puddle or a lake or some sort of spontaneous fresh water.

My ebony ears cocked and twirled upon my solid skull to the sound of a dog's nails clicking upon the cement nearby. I twisted my head around towards the sound, taking in a large, beige dog. Anatolian Shepherd, I do believe. He was a handsomely bred creature, muscles thick and toned. Ah, and his ego. Let's hope he doesn't trip over it, hm? He held himself with such confidence, you would think he's a king. Hm, maybe this is "his" territory. Ah, no matter. I'll enjoy my swim anyways. It seems he's on a mission elsewhere? Ah, no. He's coming this direction. Maybe he'll say something? Mm, doesn't look like it. In fact, it looks like he's in his own little Anatolian Shepherd world. Hm. I watched as he raced towards the deep end, soaring into the water with a rather large splash. One that soaked any dry spot on me. I giggled involuntarily, it was just a funny moment. His cranium broke the surface, and a laugh rolled from his lips. He reminded me of my brother, of Eris.

Oh, dear Eris,
please return to me. I hope to soon find you along the way of my journey to find myself. Please know it wasn't your fault we're strays. You couldn't have stopped it. You couldn't have saved them. Please know this: everything happens for a reason. We're in this situation for a reason. And I s'pose I must know that we've been separated for a reason. Maybe it's time for me to grow up and get stronger. Become independent. Or maybe it's time for you to kid down and get weaker. Become dependent. Maybe you're also trying to find yourself. Maybe you're dead already. Maybe you've got a mate and pups. Who knows? Well, not I, Eris. Do you know the origin of our names? I am the goddess of strife. You are the god of chaos. Do you know why the humans named us this? Fate. Irony. Destiny. Oh, dearest Eris, I hope to find you one day.
Sincerely, Discordia.

Many emotions flew through me at once. Fear. Is he going to attack me? Anger. Why hadn't this dumb ass looked before he jumped in? Curiosity. What will his reaction be? Awkwardness. Should I say something, or allow him to first? Depression. Will another dog leave me behind? Worry. Is he alright; am I alright? Happiness. Do I have a new friend before me? Stress. What am I to do? All of this was so overwhelming to me. I had to quickly make a decision, and the right one. Should I react curious? defensive? aggressive? scared? eager? awkward? depressed? stressful? Ah, I knew exactly what to do: nothing. I would float until he reacted, then choose my next action. Not a sound or movement would be made.

words- 607.
muse- Okay.
for- Tsuya with Nuju. (:
comments- Hahaa, wow. Nuju is quite a character. Eh, I tried a bit. (:

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[tsuya]

I paddled towards the wall, my head swung towards the sun as it cast a variable rainbow across the world. My eye flared, pupil dialating to its biggest, and with a yelp I fell beneath the water, clenching my eyes shut and flailing in the water, following the wall until I reached the shallow end and burst above the water. Gasping and coughing, I stood belly deep in the water. A headache poured through me, and I groaned, thinking of my mother, my mother who tried to crush my skull when I was young, the mother who was so supersticious that she tried to drown me, and claimed that when I died she would find me and use my organs to ward off evil spirits. My mother, my insane, dead mother, who haunts my dreams and scares the shit out of me. My mother, who broke me. When my eye finally contracted, I turned back towards the sun, and finally saw the other body that was in the area with me.

She was floating, looking amiable, clueless, if I may say so myself, but she probabbly was just so surprised by my shocking arrival. A deep embarrasment flooded through me and turned my legs to rubber and my blood to fire. This was the first time I had been in the presence of another canid, let alone another canid of the opposite gender- and I had only been there for five minutes and already I had made a complete and utter fool of myself. I lowered my head and whined slightly. What an idiot, what a complete, fucking idiot. I clambered out of the pool and shook myself of the chlorine filled water that soaked my skin and made the wounds on my back burned. I turned to her. I wondered, what pain had I caused to her? What terror had I embedded deep within her heart? What misfortunes had I made to happen, what storms had I triggered over her head? My wounds started to bleed again, I could feel them, the wounds from the fence. I felt no anger, no sadness at my self inflicted wounds, because they hurt and punished me for all the evil I brought to this world and the innocents... My eye dialated again, and I yelped in pain. OWFUCKTHATBURNS! pain turned the front of my head red and flowed through my whole body, I opened it slightly... the whiteness from the cement was a blaring spotlight. I closed it until the pain disappeared and the pupil contracted again. Then I spun quickly around and sheepishly sat down. Uhh...hi. My red eye seemed to blare. I wonder if she saw it. OF COURSE SHE SAW IT, God, I'm such a dumbass. But I smiled. Hi. My names Nuju.

Hello mother. Yes, yes I did all that. Yes, I ran over the hot rocks. No, I did not come in from the storm. I know, I need to be punished. No food today? Mother, this is the second day in a row. No, no I am not going against you. No, mother. Never. Never. Yes, I know I hate you. I disgust you and I revolt you and when I am dead you will celebrate by dancing on my grave. Mother. Mother, why are you looking at me like that? My eye? What is wrong, with my eye? Yes, its dialated, so what? No, mother I have no control over that. Mother, mother please.... mother... why are you.. mother... GUAH... mother... mother...why, why are you tring to attack me. Mother.... Gotta get out of here, mother wants to kill me... damn, that sounds stupid. Mother... mother... why... Father! FATHER!!! Father... where are you.. father.. FATHER! FATHER!! Oh, father... father... there you are.....
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No.
Nothings wrong.
Nothings wrong at all.

[pandora]

DISCORDIA.

I floated there in the seven-foot-deep pool, staring at him with curious, tawny eyes, anticipating his next move, his next action. I took in every clumsy motion he made as he paddled towards the large cement border, making a lot of noises and a lot of splashes. Well. He was.. erm, cute.. in his own little way. Even as he flailed towards the shallow end, he gave me a shocking spark of an urge to giggle and laugh. Sure, I also felt the need to help him, but I was pretty sure I'd frighten him, I'm not sure he was aware that I was even here yet. It was a few more minutes that I kicked, paddled, and waded silently beneath the water's continuously moving surface, keeping my skull and ears above the water's unforgiving wrath, before he finally looked my way and noticed me. He was quite the oddball, that was for sure, but it was in an undeniably interesting way. This poor dog was definitely catching my attention in such a unique way. Pity surged through me as he yelped and cursed the pain. A small, nearly silent whimper was caught in my throat, and I let it flow through my voice slightly. I could do that, couldn't I? Yet again, the male faced me, and this time, I was quite sure he was to speak to me.

Uh... Hi. Yep, I was right. Lost in my own thoughts, I could only tilt my slender skull to the right as I reviewed over him. He was quite a looker, very handsome, muscular.. I continued with the comments upon his looks when I was frozen by the sight of something I had never seen before in my doggy year. I squinted harder, trying to support my sight. Is it an illusion..? Subconsciously, I paddled forwards gradually, nearing him with inch-by-inch. Yes. It was. He had a red eye. It was startling and quite odd, but interesting nonetheless. I now knew that I needed to meet him, to know more about him, to befriend him. It was my most recent goal. I snapped out of my rude stare as his fluent voice grasped my attention once more. Hi, my name's Nuju. Nuju. Hm, what an odd name. This feller was just unique in many ways.

I realized I could now reach the bottom of the pool, so I waded towards him still. Why stop now that I'm this close? Oh! It would probably be a good idea to reply to him. I found my voice again somewhere deep inside of me and dragged it out swiftly. Hello, there, Nuju. I'm Discordia. It'sa pleasure to meet ya. I was now merely feet from him, the water revealing my frame, my corset of tawny and black, every curve on my body drawn out from the slick pelt sucking to me. Now, I was relaxed, and it was most likely apparent, for my tongue lolled about my open jowls, my tail was slightly wagging, and my muscles were much less tense. I decided to attempt for that friendship. Care to take a swim with me, sir? My voice sounded inviting to me, but I wasn't sure how it sounded in his ears, of course.

words- 555
muse- It's getting worse. D:
for- Tsuya with Nuju.
comments- D'aw, he's adorable. (:

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Nuju

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Discordia. Discordia. The goddess of strife. What strife was in her life? What had I done to cause her life to suck. I wanted to just out and ask, but I figured that would creep her out. She looked like a mess... but a neat mess, like she was just thrown together. She had a bit of a Collie appearance but had that German Shepherd flair. I heard her whimper, and figured it was soaked with pity. I didn't need anyones pity. I was a horrible thing, brought to life by the devil and cursed to make things horrible wherever I go. My mother told me so. And you might think its funny, and say that she wanted to kill me so why do I listen, and I tell you I listened because she was my mother. Its a stupid reason. I am a broken dog, I have no true happiness... every bright moment is shadowed by the fact that somewhere I am causing another dogs life to turn sour. It puts a great damper on the spirit, even when one is bursting with happiness. And it sucks. Never being happy. And I bet your saying that I shouldn't believe any of that stuff but I do because its all I've ever had to believe in so I grabbed it. My father tried to break me of my habit, my believe I am a horrid thing habit, and he failed, and it was the only thing my father ever failed at. I was my fathers only failure... and that is one of the reasons that keeps convincing me.

My pupil decided to go with me on one account and stayed a tiny dot. Looking with my brown eye, I could see her get ever closer. I wondered that if being in proximity to me caused the bad stuff to happen faster or more rapidly- I had never let anyone get this close to me for fear of that happening, but I guess that this was the time to figure out. Strife. War and strife. Pain and strife. Strifed goes with all the bad words. It is strength to keep on going, I guess, strife. I saw her zero in on my bad eye and I lowered my head. It was embarrasing, actually, having this stupid birthmark. My dad said it was genetic, because way back in our lines he thought he had a great uncle or grandfather who had a red eye or something and I always said that he couldn't prove it and he would agree and then I'd just sulk off to not brig any more bad stuff down on my family, on my mom. My mom who hated me and I still felt I needed to do everything for. My mother who I... loved.

Did I?

When I saw she was relaxed, I relaxed slightly, too. "The Goddess of strife. What an... odd name." I pondered aloud, then shook my head. "I mean, I have no room to talk." My voice came out in its normal, gentle peal, calm and soft. When she asked the question I glanced again at the pool, then up at the passing footsteps of the guards coming back and walking past the pool. Would they see us? I glanced back at her, trying to hide the obvious fact that I was slightly afraid... but I wasn't doing a good job at it. "Sure..." I could only just imagine the bad stuff that would soon start happening.

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words-631
from-Nuju
for-Discordia
comment-sorry it took me so long -fails- i was so busy with stuff.